happilylush:

The first time I saw her..
Everything in my head went quiet.
All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared.
When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments.
Even in bed, I’m thinking:
Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.
Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.
But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips..
Or the eyelash on her cheek—
the eyelash on her cheek—
the eyelash on her cheek.
I knew I had to talk to her.
I asked her out six times in thirty seconds.
She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going.
On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or talking to her..
But she loved it.
She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times at different times of the day.
She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk.
When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely lock the door eighteen times.
I’d always watch her mouth when she talked—
when she talked—
when she talked—
when she talked;
when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges.
At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off.
She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her.
But then.. She said I was taking up too much of her time.
That I couldn’t kiss her goodbye so much because I was making her late for work..
When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line..
When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking..
And last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place.
She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but..
How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touch her?
Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t.
I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her.
Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin.
I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars..
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on.
I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel..
How she turns shower knobs like she’s opening a safe.
How she blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out—….
Now, I just think about who else is kissing her.
I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once—he doesn’t care if it’s perfect!
I want her back so bad..
I leave the door unlocked.
I leave the lights on.

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brylow:

every. damn. day.

brylow:

every. damn. day.

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(Roughly) Ordered from Least to Most Personal

  • 1: Do you prefer pancakes or waffles?
  • 2: What is your favorite breakfast?
  • 3: What kind of weather is your favorite?
  • 4: When was the last time you climbed a tree?
  • 5: What was your favorite year in school (so far)?
  • 6: What colors has your hair been in your life?
  • 7: Do you prefer your hair long or short?
  • 8: What's your go to sitting around on the couch food?
  • 9: What clubs do/did you participate in at school?
  • 10: What's the first money you ever legitimately earned?
  • 11: What's the first album you ever legitimately purchased?
  • 12: How would you describe your aesthetic?
  • 13: What are little things that your good friends know about your that casual friends don't notice?
  • 14: What is something you and your best friend say/do that seems strange to an outsider?
  • 15: Do you like to sleep near the wall, the middle, or the open side of the bed?
  • 16: What's the strangest rumor that has ever been spread about you?
  • 17: What is the most flattering compliment you remember receiving?
  • 18: How involved were you in the drama of your high school?
  • 19: What's the most uncomfortable thing a stranger online has said to you?
  • 20: What's an embarrassing thing that has happened to you?
  • 21: When sleeping with another person do you prefer to stay over at your house or theirs?
  • 22: Do you ever send anonymous messages of any variety?
  • 23: Do you feel comfortable running into people from your high school?
  • 24: What laws are that you feel bothered by?
  • 25: Do you like to cuddle while you are sleeping?
  • 26: Do you know how many people you have kissed?
  • 27: What are things you find really sexy in other people?
  • 28: What are your favorite parts of your own body?
  • 29: What are you favorite places to be touched?
  • 30: Do you or have you ever owned any sex toys?
  • 31: How many times have you had sex with the last person you slept with?

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lightrup:

maybe university isn’t a good idea

maybe becoming a tree is a good idea

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plantvibes:

cute date idea: let me sleep in your bed for hours on end because I’m tired of being a person

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inkskinned:

idk man it just makes me so so so sad when you’re watching a cutiepie talk about their passion like when they light up and start bubbling over with words and then all of a sudden they stop themselves and say stuff like “sorry, i know this is boring” or “sorry i just got excited”

like you know somewhere in their life someone they respected told them “shut up nobody cares” and ever since they can’t talk about their favorite things without apologizing every 5 seconds

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meulin-weipon:

cityofbadass:

Do you ever wonder about how an author would describe you in a novel? Not only your appearance but the way you talk and laugh and hold yourself and all the expressions on your face?

image

(Source: wingsofbadass)

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Look at this adorable little kitty!

Look at this adorable little kitty!

(Source: mildandgentle)

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“Beauty is not long hair, skinny legs, tanned skin or perfect teeth. Beauty is the face of who cried and now smiles, beauty is the scar on your knee since you fell when you were a kid, beauty is the circles when love doesn’t let you sleep, beauty is the expression on the face when the alarm rings in the morning, it’s the melted makeup when you have a shower, it’s the laughter when you make a joke you’re the only one who can understand, beauty is meeting his gaze and stopping understanding, beauty is your gaze when you see him, it’s when you cry for all you paranoias, beauty is the lines marked by time. Beauty is what we feel in the inside which also shows outside us. Beauty is the marks the life leaves on us, all the kicks and the caresses the memories leave us. Beauty is letting yourself live.” ― Emma Watson

Beauty is not long hair, skinny legs, tanned skin or perfect teeth. Beauty is the face of who cried and now smiles, beauty is the scar on your knee since you fell when you were a kid, beauty is the circles when love doesn’t let you sleep, beauty is the expression on the face when the alarm rings in the morning, it’s the melted makeup when you have a shower, it’s the laughter when you make a joke you’re the only one who can understand, beauty is meeting his gaze and stopping understanding, beauty is your gaze when you see him, it’s when you cry for all you paranoias, beauty is the lines marked by time. Beauty is what we feel in the inside which also shows outside us. Beauty is the marks the life leaves on us, all the kicks and the caresses the memories leave us. Beauty is letting yourself live.” ― Emma Watson